Where datadink ruffles her feathers

Is this the way it's going to be forever? The end of August until oktober. November. Struggling with this feeling of nothingness inside. Feeling of I will I can I hope but I feel nothing, right now I feel nothing. Feel wrong. Feel. At least I feel nothing is something, right?

And why am I complaining? There is nothing to complain about. I'm like a happy ducklin in a beautiful pond. There is no complaining. No complaining at all. I just need to ruffle my feathers and get on with it.

I can't see the stars for the darkness. I can't see the stars for the light. I can't see the stars for the thunder in my eye. I can't see the stars for the short sighted hues.

Oh don't mind me.

Mood:  Unvolluntarily blue.

Where datadink is bored because of politics

It's been such a nice day so far but it's going to end in politics. Oh the agony, the agony. It's been talked about. It's been babbled about. It's been everywhere. I just want to get away. Away from it. So I delve into internet in the hope that I can get away from it there. On the internet there are always stop buttons and escape routes in the form of links. I like escape routes.

Perhaps I should speak about the weather or the fact that I haven't got any chocolate. Perhaps I should speak about my laptop which has been giving up again or of the fact that I just want to stick my head in the sand these days. I like the head in the sand. It makes everything clearer. Simpler. Nicer.

Where datadink has a good day

There are good days and there are bad days and this one is one of the goods. Despite the rain that fell earlier and the bad lunch. A good day like so many others, a normal day with good news (and some a bit worse). But crying out at the sky doesn't work. So I put my head into my work and praise the laptop that it decided to work today. Hope tomorrow will be as good. And the next.

If there is one thing that datadink loves it's working technology. Too bad it rarely does properly - or is it the lack of funding that is expressed in the blue screens and whatnots?

Good day today though - all is working well - within the right parameters.

datadink

Mood:  Darn well jolly

Where datadink longs for science-fiction

Aj, aj aj. I look at the city's horizon and wish that it was more interesting. Higher houses, round towers with glass cupicles at the top, dark houses with unpenetrable windows, hoover cars speeding in a line silently past my window, colorful people with interesting lives and goals and higher hopes.

Instead I see series of houses that all look more or less the same. I see a city that seems to die a peaceful death each night and doesn't come to live again until early next morning when the sun starts to shine. And soon it'll be worse. Soon it'll start coming to live in the early hours of darkness. Darkness which will last for a long time. Unpenetrable, cruel darkness only letting the light in for a few hours each day. It makes the people dim and dull. It makes the hopes low and the goals waver.

I guess reading is my best option. Or perhaps a good movie?
Reality has never been my thing, really.

datadink

Mood:  reality bites

Where the datadink goes Prowling

I hear them laugh everywhere around me. Laugh and be merry but when I do it too I'm frowned upon. What's she doing? Why is she doing it wrong? I surrender to the fact that I'm different, if only slightly. It's like having half a brown eye in a group of people with only blue eyes. They won't notice right away but after a while they can't but to stare at it. The brown spot. Skidrow.

There might not come the day that it's overwon. The brown in your eye will always be there. You can hide it with a contact lense or try paint it blue but it'll always be there and because you know it's there they will feel it too. Just surrender to be the outsider people love to accept and pat on the head. There's little else to do but smitten them with your kind of laughter and the brown in your eyes.

And so I prowl down the main street in search of an answer to todays question: Is there a day after today or will we have to seize today? The answer on people's faces is clear. Don't seize today - do it tomorrow. It's easier. Better weather. More fun. More money. Do your working today. Wait until tomorrow. 

datadink out

Mood:  Philosophical